Texts: Rain

The streets were slick from the softly falling rain.  The rainy season, when she could walk the dark, rain soaked streets, hiding her tears with the raindrops from the darkly clouded sky.  It was the rain that made Seattle the city to always hold her heart.  The city that cradled her melancholy.

Y did you say that?
Say what?
I’m failing here, really bad
What’s wrong M?
The same thing as always.  Y did you say that? What am I supposed to do now?
M, you aren’t making sense.  I’m worried.  R u drinking?
Walking in the rain
Y are you walking in the rain
Because I can’t escape.  There is no where for me to run anymore
How much have you had to drink?
Not enough
M, please, u r killing me
Lol, no I’m not.  U don’t care, not really, we r just friends
What the hell does that mean? I care about u, I think about u all the time
Ok
M, what’s going on
Nothing.  Sorry, I didn’t mean to bother u.  That’s what I mean by I’m failing.  I’ve become the manipulative abuser and I hate it
You aren’t an abuser. Talk to me
It’s just the rain and alcohol.  I’m fine.  Ttyt
M, please, don’t do that

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M? Talk to me

M, please, answer me

Texts: Miscommunication

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How much have you had to drink?

What’s the difference

Are you home?

No

How are you going to get home

I don’t know

Why did you drink so much?

Why did you say what you did?  Just before I walked out the door? FFS what was I supposed to do with that?  Did you do it on purpose

What are you talking about?

You really are fucking clueless aren’t you.  You are the one that makes me wet, you are the one that makes me smile, you are the one that makes me get up in the morning and you are the one who relegated me to this

To what? I don’t know what to say to any of that

Yeah, you never do, do you.  You only know how to say shit when I’m about to meet someone else

You are my best friend, you know that, I want the best for you

Really? Do you?

Yes. Why are you angry with me

I’m not angry

Yes you are

No, I’m not angry.  I’m hurt

Why

Fuck you.  Really, just fuck. you.

How am I supposed to fix this if you won’t tell me what’s wrong?

Nothing’s wrong.  I’m fine.  I called Uber

Talk to me

I’ll be home soon, nothing for you to worry about

I worry about you

Don’t.  I’m fine. Just drunk and I’ll forget all this in the morning.  Go to sleep, sweet dreams, ttyt

Don’t do that

Do what

Avoid the question

I forgot the question, it doesn’t matter, I’m fine, no need to worry.  I’m almost home.  Goodnight

You aren’t supposed to be drinking anyway

Yeah, I know

Talk to me

What do you want me to say

Tell me what’s wrong

Nothing

Bullshit

What the fuck do you want from me? 

I want to know you are okay, you’re safe

Yes

Don’t do that

Yeah, whatever, I’m done, goodnight

M, please, talk to me

Nothing to say. I’m home, safe, goodnight